let's mix things up.

I haven't done a blog for a few days, but i have saved a load in my drafts, just waiting for the 'right time' to post. So i've decided to shake things up and put a few blogs in to one. Oh yes, i am that risky, be prepared for a corker my friends.


me: takes a gulp of rat's wine.
rat: put that back
me: *shakes head*

rat: PUT THAT BACK

me: *spits in glass* happy now?

rat: yes, yes i am. good girl.
That pretty much just defines why i love them all so much, and love them i do. I want to go back to the days of getting chatted up by turkish people and the days where turning up at midnight is considered an early start.

Today, i actually sat down at my piano, and just played. I wasn't entirely aware of what it was i was playing, some of it sounded good, but most of it sounded bad to be perfectly honest. It wasn't what it sounded like that was of interest, it was the fact that whatever it was, however ugly it may be was expressing just how i felt. I wish i was Mozart, he just wrote music. He didn't ever cross one thing out. How amazing would that be? To have so much music in your head, that it came out perfectly, it's like music were his real words. I can't say as though i particularly like his music though. But he is utterly outstanding.


Finally, i watched something truly beautiful today; Natural World. The friendship between a killer whale and a human being is truly remarkable. The whale, called Luna, unfortunately died. I think that was the most touching part, how the locals of this untouched village were actually crying, you could tell they were physically upset. People take so much for granted, everyone wants a new ipod, the latest runway look and enough money to last the weekend. People are forgetting the things that actually matter and it makes me feel quite sad. I know i'm no angel myself, and i feel quite ashamed. I think it's time i just sat back and thought about what it is that i really need.