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So, this blog is for Tara, cos she asked me to write one, so i'm gonna ;)

1. I like watching the World Cup, simply because the names of some of the more exotic players amuse me. I also happen to like the celebrations they do afterwards, especially, i like the English crowd, you can always count on the bang of a drum and a the chant of 'England' to set a bit of patrism.

2. Last night i saw this man:

I can honestly say i've never been so attracted to someone in my entire life, the feeling to just run that 30 metres and just touch him was seriously tempting. It felt like i was watching a true icon, and if i can still sing and dance, while playing a guitar and being propelled across the 02 at 48, i will consider myself seriously lucky. I don't think i'll ever get the same high i got from looking across seeing thousands of people singing their hearts out to 'living on a prayer'. It was truly amazing.

3. There are moments when you feel that despite a feeling for a person, you need to let it go. It's impossible to describe but you just know that if you want to stay true to yourself, it's better to leave while you're still in the shallows. The worst part is all i can feel is regret. I hate it because it's a feeling i thought i had got rid of, but i guess i just got a bit distracted.

C'est la vie!

just a little update

1. Don't play the playaaaaa. I am on a very 'John Tucker Must Die' kinda mission at the moment, i have to say i'm quite enjoying it. I have come to the conclusion that some guys just deserve what's coming to them, and if i get the chance to dish it out, then i'm not gonna let it slip by. I feel i should get one in for the girls.

2. I have a best friend and she's really cool. She brought a trampoline and didn't tell her parents, and now she has a trampoline in her garden, and that's really cool too. She is also holding my LOTF book hostage, that is not so cool, and i'm slightly worried for it's well being.

3. Is it so wrong that i genuinely enjoy exams? I don't know what is is about them, but i just like them.

4. I like it when you talk to a guy, and he's nothing like you expected him to be. Yes, some people may say he's a bit of an arse, but i quite like that about guys. For most people, not arguing is a fundamental part of a relationship, for me, arguing is pretty vital. I'm looking forward to getting pasta cooked for me.

5. I pee my pants at the thought of summer. Though i do wish i had more plans to fill up my beloved diary in my equally beloved fountain pen.

That's all really. Life is good :)

apologies to all those concerned.

I have no enthusiasm for this anymore.
I try so hard to write something, but never get further than a paragraph.
The words just don't come.
Which is a shame, because i have a lot to tell you lot. Hopefully i'll get some momentum soon.

baby there's a shark in the water.

DEFO 2K10

that up there ^^^^ is the phrase of the year. i will be adding it to conversation at every possible moment.

first blog of april?
hmmmmmmmmmmmm. not impressed.
i'll give you a proper one soon, i promise.

waving the white flag.

So, in life when i look at what i consider the best things to indulge in, are cigarettes, vodka, sex and spaghetti hoops.

I seriously think spaghetti hoops complete me as a person, though only if it's Heinz, otherwise, it would be like rippinng my heart into a thousand pieces.

I'm going to ring my husband in a minute, we went on a break for a while, it didn't work out, turns out we're stuck with eachother for now.

once.

The best film i have ever watched. The best sound track ever written. It really was one of those films where you never look at something the same way again. Plus, anyone with an irish accent, curly hair, and a guitar with a hole in is likely to float my boat.

Just how amazing would it be, if someone came up and shook your hand in the street, and it turned out that touch changed your life forever. It makes you wonder that maybe we do all have a plan? That somewhere there is some divine fate looking after us all. I'm usually pretty cool with the whole 'it just wasn't meant to be' thing, but now i'm gonna leave it all to the fates i think, let's see what happens.

This is what you've waited for, the chance to even up the score, and as these shadows fall on me now, i win somehow.

Shakespeare, Austen, Priestley.

I COULD PUT ALL THREE OF YOU IN A PLASTIC BAG, TIE IT UP, SHOVE IT IN AN INCINERATOR, TAKE THE ASHES AND FEED THEM TO AN ASH-EATING MONSTER, TAKE THE ASH-EATING MONSTERS SHIT, THEN ROCKET YOU OUT TO MARS, SO I NEVER EVER EVER HAVE TO HEAR OF YOU AGAIN.

Well, atleast till next year. You have totally ruined my weekend, i hope you're all bloody happy with yourselves, you literary heroes.

On a happier note, i'm really pleased with how my sixth form interview went, i don't think i've felt this excited about something for a long, long time. I almost want exams to come sooner, so summer comes sooner, so moving away from everything comes sooner?

Yesterday, i wrote down everything i wanted, everything i was feeling onto a scrap of paper, then i burnt it, and it felt strangely good! Then, i found something else, my little cousin, the one person in the world i would hand on heart take a bullet for, had written a letter, it said 'to harry there is a new harry in our school his name is harry love you if you have a gerl frend dump her dump hard and say to her i never want to see you ever agen ok i'm nerely 7 i am haveing a party in the hall and after there is a sleepover in the hall as well you are coming to the party is that ok?'  and then i cried. She wrote this letter two weeks ago, to a boy who left her school over a year ago, and it has proved exactly what i've thought for a long time now, you can never be too young to be in love.

Then, at two in the morning, my other cousins came in as pissed as parrots. Then when we looked at the clock and saw it was coming up to five in morning we couldn't actually we'd just sat there talking for three hours/playing 15 to 1. It's funny how much the smallest conversation can have the biggest impact on you, and i see now see a few things about people that i'd be totally oblivious to before. I also know that i adore my family. 

 

Finally, i've had the best phone call with someone today. Someone i adore just because there is no one else like him, he truly is unique. Part of me is laughing and thinking 'Ha, karma's come to bite yo ass' but most of me just hopes it turns out alright. Miss you berries.