oh if only micheal buble wrote the bible.

And then i'd get scouting for girls to be the disciples.

I think they'd write a bloomin' fantastic bible for everyone to follow, fuck the 10 commandments, your songs make so much more sense!

now there is one outstandingly important fact about this spaceship planet Earth, and that is that no booklet came with it

-buckminster fuller

I wish someone had. I really desperately want someone to come up to me, and shake my shoulders, look me right in the eyes and say 'it's all going to be alright, don't worry chook'. The thing is no one is going to do that. I wish someone had written a set of strict instructions on how to get over someone. Though recently, i've been looking back and realising what a dick i was to people. In the past, i've treated people with so much inconsideration, just walked all over them, but not thought twice about the fact that it may actually be hurting them. I've opened my eyes to how i treat people, and some of my actions, but most especially to the people i miss. The people that i let go. Oh, so foolish. I'm going to get these people back, and cling on to them, one in particular. You're never ever going to read this, but i am so so sorry for how i treated you.

I wish someone would come along and tell me how to get my coursework done, how to write it just to the moderators liking, how to manage my time, how to not leave it to the night before and have a breakdown, that's never fun. But i feel like i'm drowning in this huge pit of textbooks, and i need to swim, because that one stroke could determine the rest of my life.

the future has a way of arriving unannounced

- george will

I cling on to that quote with eager fingers. This time last year, i didn't even know of the people i would call my best friends, i didn't even know half of them existed. Now i don't know what i'd do without them? Though, i would still like a change, i want to move on. Not lose the people i hold so dearly now, but find new people who i can hold equally close. I think it's a magical thing to believe that maybe tomorrow i will bump into someone who could change my life. All it takes is one moment in time, one night, one gaze caught, a smile exchanged; a bestfriend found. This thought makes me think that moving 6th form is going to be the best thing for me next year, i love you all so much, i really do. I need somewhere new though, somewhere where no one knows me, no one has any expectations, i don't have a reputation. I'm just Emily Gardiner. Let's see where that takes me.