Such a simple question, yet these days i find struggle to answer it. Before i could reel off numerous events that had happened, pointless bits of gossip and romanctic ventures. Now i think 'what actually is new with me?' Nothing. That's the answer. The thing is, i kinda like it. How there is nothing distracting my mind, nothing to consume hours of my time, and i think the most prominent feature is that i'm not tied to any guy. Of course there's the infamous 'liquid guy', but then, i've liked him for so long now that it hardly seems like a distraction. I'm not tied to anyone, except myself and i feel so much better for it.
Someone said 'every time i speak to you, you change just that little bit more, get a little bit more mature'. It's true, i can feel a change. It's gonna sound so stupid, but today i actually went to the doctors and made an appointment, completely by myself. Before, i'd always relied on my parents to do that sorta thing, it had never crossed my mind before that i'd ever have to start doing it myself. Every day it feels more and more like i'm becoming the person that i want to be. It still scares me though, the thought that in a few years time i'm gonna be out in that big bad world, and everything that i take for granted now is gonna be such a huge struggle. Though in some ways, i can't wait to get things started, the anticipation is starting to get too much!
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