stepping in the danger zone.

i think you and your stupid make-up suxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx.
with love schweetheart.

I don't cream him, but i don't even care this is two blogs in a row. I do not know what i'd do without you, you were the only one who told me no. That means something.

So, topic of discussion today; is going back over past flings a good idea?
If you ever once had feelings for someone, does that mean that you can never be; just friends? Over the past two years i've had a fair share of romances, yet still i can only say that i'm 'just friends' with one of these guys. I find it ironic that he was the one i was sposed to fall hardest for, so i begin to wonder just how much of those feelings were actually real? Someone else, who i probably fell for just as hard, something that happened two years ago, there is still something there. I know that we could never be merely friends because there's always gonna be that soft spot, something that will probably last forever?Likewise, something that happened more than two years ago, is coming back around this week. Why is it that something that happened so long ago is still active. There are still feelings there after such a long time! Will those feelings ever go away?


Maybe the true test of how deep your feelings are comes from what happens afterwards. Maybe the fact i can be the elusive 'just friends' means that the feelings were superficial. Maybe the fact that i don't want anything to do with the person who should mean the most shows that there was something wrong anyway? Or maybe it's just that if someone hurts you enough you can never let them back in? The flings that lasted a month at the most always seem to keep returning though, perhaps it's because they were never complete, there's still unfinished business, or maybe it's because everything that was felt was intense and condensed into such a short space of time that it's still got energy left to stand the test of time?
Though, going over old ground is probably a mistake, after all there's always a reason why someone is an ex? There is a reason why that romance only lasted a month. Sometimes it's better to ignore reality.