well if i'm not sure..

i won't do it?

PAH.

Sometimes, i wish people would be more like me. Not in an arrogant way, i'm a bitch, if everyone was like me the whole world would be a warzone. Just in how i always jump at any oppurtunity, i don't understand how people can live with the 'what if's'?! This reckless behaviour will probably be my downfall, as i always find it hard to say: no. I just don't understand? To me, if there's even a 1% chance that something may work, i'll put myself on the line to try it.

Don't get me wrong, i love you. I also love how we're having this conversation right now, becuase i wouldn't want to have it with anyone else. I also love how when you read this, it won't matter cos we're that close. But for god sake, get some balls justin.

And another note. You don't realise just how much you mean to me. It's like a mother, daughter relationship, and as all children do, they take their parents for granted. I think it's because you're the person who over the past 5 years has seen me at my highest, and seen me hit rock bottom, i know i could trust my life with you. That's not really good enough though, and it's about time i started giving something back. I will, i promise.