hi there 2010...

this year i'm going to make some resolutions, i never usually bother making them because i know that they won't happen, but this year i am determined to succeed.

1. cut down on smoking. i know it's a bad habit, and i know that in effect i'm killing myself, but it's so tempting, so accessible, so 'let's just have a fag', so not an excuse.


2. excercise more. i need to go swimming, i need to tone up, i need to be healthier, i take it for granted now, but one day if i don't stop eating crap i'm gonna turn into a whale.


3. practise the piano. i find it really sad when i think about the passion i used to have for music, i would spend hours at a keyboard perfecting a piece and spilling my heart in to it. maybe it was the work overload, maybe it was getting a real social life. but these days i'm lucky if i manage an hour at a week. it really has to change.


4. learn that i can't change the decisions i've made. i have a horrible habit of going over and over and over things in my head, thinking 'if only i had done that' what would have happened if..... and it drives me crazy, gets nothing done, and makes me unhappy, so it's about time i stopped doing it!


5. stop running away from things. i seem to have this natural problem where when i feel myself getting in too deep, losing control of a situation that i need to ruin it. then spend the next few months regretting it when really if i'd just manned up, and let myself get in deeper, i'd probably have been so happy in the situations, i'm not gonna let it happen again though. it's a ridiculous habit.