dear diary.

I had a really good day today. I laughed, i cried because i was laughing. I woke up with a smile on my face because i had an unopened text. I enjoyed my German lesson, that consisted of me screaming every time someone tried to touch me. I liked maths, because i enjoy the numbers and i like talking to Maggie, because she understands how my mind works. Chemistry was amusing, because now Mrs Asante actually knows my name. Geography was hilarious, because i spent an hour passing notes about an arab, a goat, small eyes, and shaun of the dead. I didn't appreciate having to pay £3 for my overdue library books though. I did however like sitting in McDonalds talking to two amazing people, and having a mouth orgasm over ketchup and bbq sauce. I liked looking at my phone and seeing a text from someone i like. I made a new friend today, and like to think that these new people are a look to the future. I played the piano and felt something. I spoke to someone i loved, and realised i don't love them anymore. This made me happy. I found a new band on youtube, and now have them on repeat, but i am too selfish to share them with anyone yet. I have a plan for tomorrow, and i am looking forward to parent's evening, because i want to know what i can do to make myself better and i don't care how sad that is. I sat down and wrote out a timetable, a to do list, so i have a structure, and feel safe in that. I am looking forward to the boys night this friday, i am looking forward to meeting someone for the first time, i am looking forward to everything, but I'm going to appreciate every mundane moment that passes my way while i'm waiting for this great explosion.